I used to think I was the only one who was a nervous person. I’ve recently learned though, that talking about something taboo, tends to bring out other people who might feel the same. So, I’ll talk about it. Those of you who don’t deal with these issues will probably think I’ve lost it…but those of you who can relate, please rest easy knowing that your problems aren’t unique. There are so many people out there who suffer from anxiety too.
It’s sort of a crippling feeling, isn’t it? Anxiety is like any other illness, in my mind any way. It’s like waking up with a stomach ache, or a migraine. There is no rhyme or reason for what brought it on, and there is no way of knowing how long it will last. The reason I’m bringing this up is for nothing other than to share an experience, and to let all of you know that you aren’t alone. I have found ways of dealing with my anxiety for the most part – the more unhappy I was in situations (work, school, relationships), the worse it became. As I was able to cut negative things out of my world, my nervousness decreased, but unfortunately, did not disappear.
Sometimes, no matter how great of a life it is, no matter how well things are going, that lump forms in your throat, and you can’t swallow it, no matter how hard you try. For me, after examining those feelings, I’ve found it’s usually anxiety caused by the feeling of not being enough or not doing enough. There are moments, hours sometimes, that I have to talk myself into believing that I am good enough.
So what’s the solution for someone who has it all – but still feels anxious or nervous? I don’t have one. I wish so badly that I did. Prayer is my main go to. Exercise is also helpful. It’s a hard challenge to face, and most people from the outside looking in think that this is nothing but a selfish attitude and could only be caused by needing more, wanting more, requiring more. I know this to be true because it has been the main factor that has caused a wedge for me in some personal relationships.
All I can do, all I want to do, is tell you that you are not selfish, you are not alone, and it will pass. As bad as things may seem in those moments, life will go on. Eventually you will be able to swallow that lump in your throat. And after that, you must continue to work on yourself to prepare for the next time that the anxiety creeps in. Just know that you are loved, and that life will throw you moments like these – but when you push through them is when you learn how strong you really are. If you keep fighting, you’ve already won.